Friends

How sure are you that the people around you are your true friends? Trust me, some of them aren't even your 'friends' either. You might just exclude yourself thinking none of your friends talk bad about you.  But the truth is,  you can never trust everyone or anything you see. Ive seen so many backstabbers throughout my life. The times where I become the middle person is most common. When I really don't want to get involved in any of their drama,  I get dragged in unexpectedly.

But thats life. I myself have said bad things about other people,  but I realise that it actually brings you down to a lower standard. When a person tells you a secret about her/his bestfriend.  THEY CANNOT BE TRUSTED.  Simple as that. From my experience,  the people who I trusted last time,  the one's whom I thought would be my BFF,  is now just a stranger I see on the other side of the road.

Let me tell you a true story about something that happened to myself.  But you have to read it until the end or you'll miss my point. Wait. Promise??  PROMISE?! ..Alright good.

Here's how it starts.

In the year 2010,  I had a bestfriend. We were really close that we spent most of our time together. But unfortunately,  something bad happened.  We fought.  But this time it wasnt just those little arguments we had everyday. It was big. Almost the whole school found out about it and the both of us suffered the period where people started asking so many questions like they were the paparazzi's from Celeb TV.  And I would go like 'No comment', 'I don't know, sorry' or just walk away. Yes I was that mad, that I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I'm sure she felt the same way too. I wasnte even sure if I had friends at that time because suddenly everybody is so nice to me (they wanted to know the reason behind our fight).

It was like war to me.  Because I had to look at someone who I had so much hatred 5 days a week.  We were in the same class,  both prefects, both in the same Sports Blue House,  and teachers would always ask the both of us for help and any performances would always include the both of us. We were like the inseparable pair in school. It made a big impact on almost everyone. I'll reject anything a teacher asks me to do if it involves her. And that caused another problem. Then my family didn't have anyone to call incase of emergency in school. Im sorry, I was just too angry that I wouldn't even want to touch, say, see or do anything related to her, or her name.
Rough eyy?

Throughout the period of cold war,  teachers approached me,  my family advised me to forget about the past and Let Bygones be Bygones.  But I still stuck with my decision.  I didnt bother what anyone else said about me.  But on the other side,  my friend tried apologizing to me,  she tried EVERYTHING. And I respect her for doing so.

So guess what?
We became friends again.  But after 730 days . Or 2 freaking years of war.

If she was as stone-hearted as I am,  we would still be enemies and she would still be in my (invisible people list).

So the conclusion here is that eventhough you've been in a terrible fight,  maybe worst than mine.  Till a point where you feel like killing that person ,  think twice.

In the year 2012, Despite me being a selfish, insensitive individual with a heart as hard as rock, God managed to show me the right path. He managed to make me forgive and forget. Everyone around me were happy again. Especially both our parents.

She is now my closest friend.  Because of the 2010 incident,  I hated the word 'Bestfriend' and no matter what happens,  I'll never call anyone my bestfriend.